eerm..
everything is breaking apart..
he blames me for all kind of shitty reasons..
locks me outside if i'm home late..
scolds me the moment he wakes up..
scolds me when he's drunk..
scolds me when i go out..
scolds me even though i didnt spend a single cent outside..
scolds me everyday when our eyes meet..
fuck~and now..
she blames me for all kind of shitty reasons too..
blames me that she cant sleep cause
he's to noisy scolding me..
blames me that every month's bill is getting higher..
scolds me when i sleep late..
scolds me when i dont even use the computer..
scolds me even when i'm reading a book in the kitchen..
fuck~i know sometimes..
nono..
almost everytime i'm at fault..
but..
i'm trying to change right ?
i said trying..
who can turn into a better man over night ?
not me !
why am i so different form my circle of friends ?
izit because i'm not normal ?
cause i'm adopted ?
man~
who knows..
family breaking up ?
cool eh ?
divorcing soon ?
i dunno ?
fight 24/7 over money..
in front of me..
is that a hint ?
i dunno..
money is the root of all evil ?
i dunno..
but i know money is causing my dad and mum to fight ever since i know them..
am i a man or a boy ?
i suddenly cant take scoldings from my dad..
i'm crying over it..
fuckkk man~
i'm not very happy this few days..
i've bought a lappy...
but i aint happy about it..
i bought a new ear piece..
but i aint happy about it..
i went out with my friends everyday..
but i aint happy about it..
i chat with my girlfriend..
but i aint happy about it..
i chat with my close friends..
and i aint happy about it..
i chat with my brothers and sisters..
but i aint happy about it..
who else can i talk to ?
the wall ?
dig a hole and fuck it*
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how i wish i can start my life all over again..
but with the same friends and her..
but a different family..
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